I'm really sorry guys. I feel like I have to tell you just how crazy I went... I have discovered I eat my feelings. My mother said she didn't want me around anymore, so how did I deal?
Breakfast: Banana bread + chocolate milk
Afterschool snack: Half veggie sammich+tea+7 crispy minis + nutella&bread
Binges: 4pm - Doughnut (long john)
4-8 carrots and plain tortilla chips 2 babybell 2laughing cow cheese
8-9- 4 slices of pizza, I dont eat any toppings ever cuase I think there gross, so its just pizzza bread but still 4... with cheesy dip
10 fibre one chocolate chip granola bar
after my friends house I was going to get candy but thank god the place was closed.. Its a sign.
ugh. I feel really sick which im happy for, My body hasnt consumed that many calories in a long time. probably like 2000 million trillion billion.
I feel like im letting you guys down. I will understand if you rip me to shreds. I am fat I know it.
maybe hearing you guys saying it will help me.
eff.
Well if it makes you feel better that wasn't a very astronomical binge, but a binge nonetheless.
ReplyDeleteI don't wanna rip you to shreds, because I know that I could binge any minute now and I know how it feels when you do binge. :(
Just pick yourself up, and start again. It's the best advice I can give you :(
<3 You didn't disappoint anyone, just remember you're doing this for youself.
Madz
your body must really hurt =/ whn you start binging, i kno this helps me, i usually think-how is this going to make my stomach feel afterwards? i thn usually stop-still having binged quiet a bit, but still. not as much as i would have.
ReplyDeleteNo one should tear you down! We know that crazy feeling when you are binge mode..you can't think clearly..you feel crazy almost. Purging is a release that makes us feel better...Its not good but, you feel better right? Thats what is important.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Madison..just pick yourself up and keep walking. It gets easier to not purge after a while..but I purged this past week too..we all slip up sweety~