Confusion..

Today I don't really know what to feel.. I'm happy that I only had a Veggie Burger, some yam fries(my stomach got the better of me and I was out with friends. I hate questioning stares), and a yam for dinner.. I really like yams :) Baseball is starting :) School is flying by now (on to graduation!) I have the perfect reason to reach my goal and that is to look fabulous in my Grad dress :) but I'm sad that im still sitting here staring at my flabby gross body. Todays workout consisted of 5 minute walk 15 minute jog 5 minute cool down. 10 minutes at speed 8.3 on elypticals and then some weight lifting and what not for 25 but I guess results don't happy over night. I have to cut out more food, and add more excersise. Tonights weigh in..145. UGH! tomorrow will be differernt I swear.

Gym Tomorrow. No stuffing my fucking face
First Game wednesday! :]

Chocolate :]

I woke up this morning and there was a trail of little chocolate eggs all the way down my hallway into my living room , and I hunted around found some eggs , ( all creme eggs) but now I just have to sit there a stare at them.. :( well okay. I had one , but I really had too!

Damn chocolate.
Please have control today

Fail..

todays eat less did not work .

I went to the gym this morning atleast. 1 1/2

tonights weigh in 149..

Where are you one 141... ?

Gym tomorrow. Fast.

Disappointing.

So, I pretty much feel like I want to cry. All week I have been working my butt of Monday I went for a 20 minute run, Tuesday had a two hour baseball practice Wednesday 50 minute run, Friday hour and half run plus weights. and I was at 141. and today in my gym time I was working so hard. I only had a little little tiny nibble for breakfast. and then we had to go out to brunch with my grandma so i got eggs benny, and then I got strawberry Ruhbarb crumble.. and then I had a coffee... a sandwich (veggie cause im a veggie :3 ) salad. Healthy enough day right? step right back up on that god forsaken scale that rules my life and bam 150 is flasshing at me ! WTF. how can i go back up that much in one goddamn day :( I was so happy all week . Tomorrow is gunna be bad too. But I will try to not eat as much as possible but I have two YES two dinners to go to :( I really just wanna be 120 and fabulous :)

hate myself so much right now.
Gym tomorrow morning.

Fresh and New.

This is a brand new blog. Mostly because I could not get into my other one... :(
ohwell.