im backk... again..again.

sorrysorrysorry. I havent weighed myself for a month.. out of fear. cause for the least 3weeks . ive just eaten everything and anything, and have just made some really stupid choices..

I'm going to the gym today.

Motivation

I found a pair jeans that are too small. I plan to fit into them by the end of june.

Catching up..

this morning was more or less terrible. I walked into my room just outta the shower looked in my mirror and saw my fat arms hanging over the towel, and the fabric stretching around my fat body. Safe to say i smashed that image into a million peices. I destroyed that mirror till it was in a million peices. I told my parents I just accidently fell into it. My hands are pretty messed up but that will go away, the cuts will be a reminder of what I dont want to see.

and now i am back for good . I messed up pretty bad without you guys . I ate horribly and I regret it.
I haven't been to the gym in 2 weeks and 3 days... I have been doing some activity but baseball is never enough.

the only plus to these last few weeks are : the grad walk, and I got my N . So now I can go to the gym whenever I want without having to wait for a parrent.

anyways, guys I have a lot of blogs to catch up on !

im alive..

sorry , ive missed out on so many blogs.. its be almost 2 weeks.. sorry sorry sorry . I was so so so busy.
and I also have not evn been going to the gym or anything..

my grad walk went sweell. !